Enough Of Emptiness

Heh,Lord.
Read this please.
Why i'm feeling this feel. yes, that one of being lost and dis-orientated. the one where time of the world rush me by and not even a care was thrown to me. oh. maybe i'm ignoring the important cues. thats more likely. i'm so sick of all that treatment i'm getting. its wrong to expect anything i guess. but i'm a pillar, in more ways then one, to the people around me. the ones i love, i loved and love me. BIG SIGHS. -yells- -bang walls- and sighs.
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alright. enough of complaining yeah.
thanks and gratefulness to those who bother to read my blog. oh is it?
hmm..ya, even chanced upon encounters' are much appreciated.
lessons still are being learnt, whilst i go about daily lamenting about my nearing 24th birthday.
I so wanna spew my heart out to some one. some one who is not troubled as they are. in peace and found peace. do they exist? (minus God, i mean)

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enough, too! of all that self-brought expectations of people. so yes, built to be solo, work as a solo. now i believe:
Minus Expecting Mindset, Expectorated Contentment."

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hmm....alright the good things, i'm sure its always there, sitting aside, ignored.
family's perfect now. dad n mum's so much happier and feeling confident nowadays. -grins-
and Lord, I thank you for that guidence that prevented insanity from creeping in to our life in a exponential rate. its so gentle, almost subtle ways, you had made your presence felt.
But Lord, I ask for your blessings once again, come bring us (me&mich) through this period of her wishing to read in the local universities. Lord, bring forthe the answer, i'm so clueless in how and when can i help. I just dun wanna let her be hurt.
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Lecture of numbers starting soon, 45minutes to go. and i'm alone sitting some where near the deans' office. wondering if i bake some nice cookies for them, would them make the exams easier?

Lord, to You, I commit.