vintage leak

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Date: June, 29th 2003
Time: 1224hrs

STARING AT TORUS

realised that how snippets of time are just manifasted dimensions of or forced (dimensioned) mind.
Bad.
I had lied to avoid nag. Yet i'm perpuatually nagged somewhere in our mental universe of something caused we set (off) without goals.

prostitution. PROSTITUTION.
how often had we prostituted ourselves, our wants for other wants, sexual? Its biological. fuck propanganda shit.
chilling to "the best of ORB" i read the script of (my) all time fav, "π" (pi, 3.142), the movie, the production. I sense the struggle of Daren.
He struggled against his slack nature. His yearn to be fucking original.

Daren Aronofsky -(director of "π" Pi the movie)

On there the name, immortalised in my one dimensions at this moment.
Crude but i like raw humans minus all sexual wants, u see the soul.

"Man without doubt is a Man without wisdom"

of fuck now this had been visualised twice in three days. are doubt tools of our mental monkey, like backdoors in software, like a keyhole in a multi-key secured safe?
-IRONY-
-beautiful life essence i believe

ah...more then ten minutes into this self-cut journey in myself.
I smiled and thought of lies in function.
My nose trickle a drop.
Suspense.
I felt so.
Wiped.
A soggy tissue.

Shots on my Kodak camara. perfect so far.

"Mum told me not to, so I did."

Irony at work? again defiance breaks culture, evolution is defiant. Nature is defiant!
But had humankind woven a structure so tight that it stops nature's works?

"Graphing number forms patterns..."

SADNESS-
ah...pondered how MAX in "π" Pi the movie stupify the search for the solution to random stock values.
Oh. maybe he represented all of us.
Damn. I'm confused.
-bleah-

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Note:
was lifted off in whole from BLACK BOOK Vol.1
written whilst facing the city centre of Singapore from the Library@Esplanade