I don't know but I'm overwhelmed with feelings, ironically, i'm hit with the full spectrum on-slurge of it. the tsunamis, everytime the ever increasing death-toll gets reported on tv, i cringe in my heart. its bad. i'm a little worried how that event had pre'occupied my mind almost since monday. god, deal your hand. and guide the orphans to places of warmth and comfort. I prayed that You help those that are desperate and utterly hopeless.
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Its new year eve once again. the world had seen another claustrophobic moment. And i realise how much i miss the old times, where i wake up to read how peace treaties were signed in landmark political settlements and how new vaccines were helping african children.
those days that i couldn't give a shit about having my dinner out with a good fren and still laugh my national slavery woes away.
like how i could share and always know that its appreciated and nodded upon not as a fake head nod.
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I had been comparing too much of my self and my ideal self. Of you and my ideal you.
I'm tired and glad i spurted all out the talk in me. moments after this i laid in bed, thinking, will these cause the end of our *****'ship? will it cause another dreadful recreated moments of re'reading how i am being despised by what i had regarded as close mate.
I really don't know. I accept your comments about me in your blog. I'm not pissed at all. but just that i had read it so many times and it does not seem that i had thought i was ok. looks like lots more reflection to do.
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no angst. just shock.
no pisses. just blankness.
no discernment. just passivism.
just submisson, and resignation.